Oh how I wish I could hold you in my arms again to comfort you and tell you everything will be okay. I beg for those nights when we laid together talking until the sun rised and laughed until we slowly fell into a deep sleep. I miss the warmth of your skin. And the touch of your lips against mine. And how we could talk to each other like best friends but could love like no other. I miss hearing your sweet voice call my name into the other room just so you could show me something that made you laugh. Boy did I love that laugh. Even though you hated your smile, it was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever looked at on you. If I could take back time I would in a heart beat. If I could I would take away your pain. If I could I would’ve told you how much you truly did mean to me. I don’t think you had a single clue how much I really did care for you. Nor how much I thought of you. I could never get you off my mind no matter how hard I tried to think of something else just so I could stop thinking so much about you. I miss you so much baby boy. I wish things were back to how they were.